'Я к вам пищу' - open letter to the ego

"Я к вам пищу – чего же боле?" - "I write this to you, what more can be said?"- as Tatiana says in Pushkin's Onegin.

Yes, and whilst am writing I can recognize your attitude, your habit better and better.

So, I turn my words to serious, as sober as this theme deserves.

May I begin with a personal experience?

On one dark November morning of 2014 I woke up with a complete English stanza in my mind. The gift was absolutely undue. More than forty years, when I learned English in secondary school and my trifling knowledge faded during the passed decades.

Thankfully I already have learned not to search causes, just to receive and enjoy the spiritual gifts.

I wrote down the "present" poem, translated it to Hungarian and uploaded my bilingual "gem" to a Hungarian poem-site immediately.  www.poet.hu/tag/pauleve55 
Comments arrived soon.

The loudest voice found fault first in my Hungarian translation, then in my English version too, and demanded to rewrite my blessed spiritual child. After my patient but unswerving resistence this loud voice blocked me.

Locked his site in front of me, as if he should be hiding, as if I would be dangerous for him.

I mused for long months ... and didn't understand.

Who is the offender and who is the victim?

Why does an aggressor escape and want to become invisible?

What have I done?

And the answer arrived, thank you Lord!

This event occured again in allpoetry.com.

One, who chose me to be a target point of provocative personal writings, who tried to manipulate and draw me into the dramatic game, yes, seeing my resistant hush this one blocked me at the end.

And I became enlightened!

The ego is scared when the selected target cannot be controlled and directed from outside!

Yes, when its worked well methods, its manipulation and provocation fail, the ego - evil, Satan, negative power or anyhow may be called - the ego begins to fear and wants to go into hiding, wants to escape.

Fear - the fear is the single reply which the ego can give to life's events.

We all know persons, who boasts with their fears as if it was a merit.

To be afraid of something, always, to feed and advertise the fears - this is a very popular and trendy habit of humans. Sorrowfully big power was given to the negativity. The power of ours.

The person, who blocks and than afraids of me, who lurks and comments from a hiding place, this person already lost the clear spiritual power - yes, gave it all to the ego, voluntarily.

This is the method as a heavenly blessed, miracoluos human being turnes to slave.

Slave of the negativity.

Slave of the ego.

And if somebody is not willing to fear?

Yes, society doesn't like originality when complete industries are based on fear.

It needs bravery to utter - I'm afraid of nothing!

And yes, I'm dangerous!

Dangerous for all egos!

Thank you Lord!

Hungarian version

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