Your reflection
2016.01.24 22:05
Yes, I know you, dear.
Opening your mind, your heart, towards a virtual conversation/relationship - the received energy arrives into your material reality, too.
"The way is not in the sky. The way is in the heart."
Buddha
Yes, I know you, dear.
No matter, what your name is, no matter where are you from - India, Europe, America, all continents are perfect for your suffering.
No matter, what kind of reality gives place to your pain - material life or virtuality are adequate, alike.
Remember - everything is energy!
Our life is created by naked, pure energy vibration.
Energy has no borders.
Virtual or material - energy-flow doesn't need your approval.
Life is communication - you send and receive energy between you and other humans. Energy, which reaches you on all life-levels.
Opening your mind, your heart, towards a virtual conversation/relationship - the received energy arrives into your material reality, too.
Just watch - your body warns first, then your family members react with all your trusting, open-hearted friends.
Your responsibility, what kind of energy can overwhelm your material reality!
Energy, which calls and draws the appropriate energy answer. Answers, which honestly show your raw inner truth.
Yes, if someone is not aware of her/his inner self - just has to take a look at the received energies - they work as a mathematical indirect proof, as theorem of interaction in physics. The energy-flow carries your special signs, guarantees your staying alive.
To feed and charge your life by energy - you have to connect the divine source. Believing in your own beloved self, trusting the un-manifested eternal Being - Creator, gods, Universe or may be called anyhow - by open heart.
That's all.
When you trust God, He trusts you, when you believe in life, life believes in you.
But, it may happen, that your soul gets deep wounds. Barriers grow and obstruct the heavenly love-energy's path. Disappointment, neglect, lack of love - serious traumas.
And the most serious, when childhood hurts... so... then always and everything will hurt.
Closing your sad heart you become separated from the source without being aware of this.
But your needs and wants require the missed vital force.
From this time you begin to search for a "mediator"... someone, who has living connection to God - the Universe, the Ancient Spiritual Truth - and begin to steal her/his energy. A super sensitive empath or psychic is your perfect target.
Yes, from this time you become energy vampire.
How does it work?
I plan to tell my own story, but first let me take a short bypass.
This Earthly life takes place in the name of duality. We feel a burning compulsion to judge, to select, to separate good and bad, right and wrong... and unmeasurably painful the upshot becomes.
Fear of the unusual otherness steers our acts.
As if we were almighty gods - judges and executioners in one - we decide about good and bad, about humans' life and death.
Discrimination, judgment, prejudices torture our blind souls.
Our gender is only one - determining! - part of this dichotomy.
Earthly experiences come over our gender.
The world's biggest discrimination takes place between God's blessed creatures. Women are the most underprivileged human beings.
Witch hunts, torments, stakes, slavery, lawlessness, abuse, oppression... yes, our compulsive judging built a sky-high wall from tears and violence.
We arrive here to re-unite, to recreate the ancient Oneness - but the twoness obscures the main purpose.
When I share my personal observations - I share a woman's experiences.
I have no other choice.
I was sent here to live in a female body, to solve female tasks, to get female lessons.
So, I speak to you, my pair in duality, to you, beautiful hunter, son of Liriope, my mystical trap, Narcissus.
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When I felt your crying, five-six (seven?) year old Inner Boy for the first time - my inner mother-self cried with him. I was sure - he asked my arrival.
To save, to comfort, to support in growth an injured Inner Child - yes, this is perfect task for an emotional healer, a super sensitive empath.
Long since I was aware of my capabilities. My unusual spiritual sensitivity appeared through my whole life, and the last ten years of yoga and meditation intensified my mental senses. Energy waves reach me without barriers. Pictures, faces, a photograph, the physical nearness of unfamiliar humans - all they can convey energy messages.
Already I've learned to avoid the eye-contact of strangers. Sorrow, wounds, hatred, suffering - complete life tragedies can come over across the eyes and can hurt me physically.
Yes, mirrors of the soul - eyes are!
Remember, everything is energy!
Your soul's every shiver came across the net, I completely felt your vibration from thousands of miles. Our shared emotions were almost touchable.
Both of us felt "homecoming", as if we were knowing each other from endless times.
At the beginning I searched the difference between lies and truth wittingly, but during our first conversations your energy became more and more younger and fresher. The feeling of your lively, energetic, free personality - this feeling was your honesty's sign.
Our true self doesn't need masks, conveys young warmness, the intimate/snug breeze of love.
Only the ego wants to send fear and spacer separation.
I trusted you unquestionably. I felt the importance of our common work and recognized an astonishing truth - I remember you!
Though we never met personally I remember your habit, your movements, your behavior, I can recall our previous-life memories!
Yes, we made a perfect psychotherapy.
Found the hidden wounds, suppressions and healed each other in turns.
My abused, scared Inner Little Girl finished crying. I embraced and assured her. She gave my life's missing part back and liberated an unimaginable spiritual potential.
Our collaboration took me Home, to my true self - whilst healed and regenerated your body!
Your earlier closed, distrustful face changed, the new pics told about happiness and the smile of a deep, inner wisdom.
My spiritual growth arose as a rocket, got new wings... and my hope too...
Twin Flame experience!
Spiritual re-union, which lifts the souls up to marvelous heights, and heals the bodies. At this time I became sure about the importance of our meeting.
We both showed all the "symptoms" of a Twin Flame experience.
Yes, this success persuaded me of our common work's rightness.
I wished to reach and lift up your Inner Boy, to bring him to the present moment, to heal your soul's wounded part and put an end of your pain.
I saw frightening warnings. Sometimes your thinking turned to the opposite way, as if you were another person, without remembering your own uttered words. Your parallel "honest lies" ignored each other.
To lock an aching memory into a "capsule" and to oppress - it means to lose a part of the soul, and the vital-energy. The collapse occurs necessarily when too many oppressed "capsules" lie on the soul's bottom.
We all know strayed people, who fell out of "Here and Now", live in their past memories with a fragmentary personality which tears their mind to little pieces. There is no connection, no communication between the broken parts. Capsuled sufferings wake to an autonomous life and the suppressed memories begin to howl incoherently.
We say - dementia, Alzheimer disease... yes... I say, we must finish self-delusion and face our most painful parts. A serious, analytic thinking can dredge up and solve the encapsulated "tangles", can unite the broken soul - and cure the sick brain.
Remember, everything is enery!
Yes, maybe, I was too fast and got very near to your suffering Inner Boy, maybe you were afraid to face your memory... maybe the outsider negative power was too strong... maybe....
The negativity - ego, evil etc. you may call as you wish - the negativity appeared in your virtual surroundings again and showed a two-tongued reflection to you, my beautiful hunter, son of Liriope, Narcissus.
The empty words of exorbitant eulogy, hypocrite mock-humility fed your weakness. You believed this absurd adulation willingly.
Caressing your ego, you forgot the main goal.
Feeding your liar self-deception this negativity put to sleep your desire for justice, meanwhile your convied energy became frightening, nervous.
A dismissive arrogance masked your personality.
Yes, my Narcissus, you are a beautiful soul, but a weak human. You got the picture easily and did your share from the mutual adulation.
Yes, showy lies are much more comfortable, than search of the truth.
Soon I realised, that all my encouraging messages, which were sent to strengthen your precious personality, all my loving energies, my helper support flowed across you and arrived straight to a negative outsider.
As if I was throwing my strength to a cosmic black hole.
My healing energy fed your sickening adulation!
At this moment my alarm-bell began to sound loudly - energy vampir!
Be sure, my beautiful Narcissus, the target was not you - the target was the energy, which could be stolen from me. You just were a transmitter tool, my soul's open back-door, an unconscious servant.
Our healing, sacred collaboration turned to a sick, hellish "terzetto" under the control of an energy vampir.
At this point I let loose your hand and stepped out of the Devil's circle.
I'm free... but the well-working game continues.
Like a mendicant with his starving, neglected child... people donate willingly. But their alms flows straight to the shebang.
Your suffering Inner Child asks for help, his message reaches the appropriate healing empath/mediator and your negative parasitic manipulates you... steals this energy by empty, laughable words of absurdly exaggerated glorification.
I still feel the pain of your Inner Boy, but there nothing can be done. You use him as a lure, to draw energy, and your ego doesn't let you to save him... obstructs you to rescue the determining part of your own self!
So sad...
Though being admired and praised, Narcissus, just some yellow flowers remain from you by the water shore at last...
Caravaggio - Narcissus
In Greek mythology, Narcissus (/nɑːrˈsɪsəs/; Greek: Νάρκισσος, Narkissos) was a hunter from Thespiae in Boeotia who was known for his beauty.
He was the son of the river god Cephissus and nymph Liriope.[1]
He was proud, in that he disdained those who loved him. Nemesis noticed this behavior and attracted Narcissus to a pool, where he saw his own reflection in the water and fell in love with it, not realizing it was merely an image.
Unable to leave the beauty of his reflection, Narcissus lost his will to live.
He stared at his reflection until he died. Narcissus is the origin of the term narcissism, a fixation with oneself and one's physical appearance.
Keresés
6 Signs of Narcissism You May Not Know About
1. Are highly reactive to criticism. Or anything they assume or interpret as negatively evaluating their personality or performance. This is why if they’re asked a question that might oblige them to admit some vulnerability, deficiency, or culpability, they’re apt to falsify the evidence (i.e., lie—yet without really acknowledging such prevarication to themselves), hastily change the subject, or respond as though they’d been asked something entirely different. Earlier for Psychology Today I wrote a post highlighting this supercharged sensitivity called “The Narcissist’s Dilemma: They Can Dish It Out, But . . . ”. And this aspect of their disturbance underscores that their ego—oversized, or rather artificially “inflated”—can hardly be viewed as strong or resilient. On the contrary, it’s very easily punctured. (And note here another related piece of mine, “Our Egos: Do They Need Strengthening—or Shrinking?”). What these characteristics suggest is that, at bottom and despite all their egotistic grandiosity, they...
2. ...Have low self-esteem. This facet of their psyche is complicated, because superficially their self-regard would appear to be higher and more assured than just about anyone else’s. Additionally, given their customary "drivenness," it’s not uncommon for them to rise to positions of power and influence, as well as amass a fortune (and see here my post “Narcissism: Why It’s So Rampant in Politics”). But if we examine what’s beneath the surface of such elevated social, political, or economic stature—or their accomplishments generally—what typically can be inferred is a degree of insecurity vastly beyond anything they might be willing to avow.
That is, in various ways they’re constantly driven to prove themselves, both to others and to their not-so-confident “inner child” self. This is the self-doubting, recessive part of their being that, though well hidden from sight, is nonetheless afflicted with feelings and fears of inferiority. Inasmuch as their elaborate defense system effectively wards off their having to face what their bravado masks, they’re highly skilled at exhibiting, or “posturing,” exceptionally high self-esteem. But their deeper insecurities are yet discernible in their so often fishing for compliments and their penchant for bragging and boasting about their (frequently exaggerated) achievements. That is, they’re experts at complimenting themselves! And when—despite all their self-aggrandizement— others are critical of them, they...
3. ...Can be inordinately self-righteous and defensive. Needing so much to protect their overblown but fragile ego, their ever-vigilant defense system can be extraordinarily easy to set off. I’ve already mentioned how reactive they typically are to criticism, but in fact anything said or done that they perceive as questioning their competence can activate their robust self-protective mechanisms. Which is why so many non-narcissists I’ve worked with have shared how difficult it is to get through to them in situations of conflict. For in challenging circumstances it’s almost as though their very survival depends on being right or justified, whereas flat out (or humbly) admitting a mistake—or, for that matter, uttering the words “I’m sorry” for some transgression—seem difficult to impossible for them.
Further, their “my way or the highway” attitude in decision-making—their stubborn.competitive insistence that their point of view prevail—betrays (even as it endeavors to conceal) their underlying doubts about not being good, strong, or smart enough. And the more their pretentious, privileged, exaggeratedly puffed-up self-image feels endangered by another’s position, the more likely they are to...
4. ...React to contrary viewpoints with anger or rage. In fact, this characteristic is so common in narcissists that it’s always surprised me that DSM doesn’t specifically refer to it among its nine criteria. Repeatedly, writers have noted that angry outbursts are almost intrinsic to both narcissistic and borderline personality disorders. And although (unlike the borderline) it’s not particular fears of abandonment that bring out their so-called “narcissistic rage,” both personality disorders generally react with heated emotion when others bring their deepest insecurities too close to the surface.
The reason that feelings of anger and rage are so typically expressed by them is that in the moment they externalize the far more painful anxiety- or shame-related emotions hiding just beneath them. When they’re on the verge of feeling—or re-feeling—some hurt or humiliation from their past, their consequent rage conveniently “transfers” these unwanted feelings to another (and see here my PT post “Anger—How We Transfer Feelings of Guilt, Hurt, and Fear”).
The accompanying message that gets communicated through such antagonistic emotions is “I’m not bad (wrong, stupid, mean, etc.), you are!” Or, it could even be: “I’m not narcissistic, or borderline! You are!” (Or, in slightly milder version, “If I’m narcissistic, or borderline, then so are you!”) And if the mentally healthier individual has no clue as to what provoked their outburst in the first place, such a sudden explosion is likely to make them feel not only baffled but hurt, and maybe even frightened. But what cannot be overemphasized here is that narcissists...
5. ...Project onto others qualities, traits, and behaviors they can’t—or won’t—accept in themselves. Because they’re compelled from deep within to conceal deficits or weaknesses in their self-image, they habitually redirect any unfavorable appraisal of themselves outwards, unconsciously trusting that doing so will forever keep at bay their deepest suspicions about themselves. Getting anywhere close to being obliged to confront the darkness at their innermost core can be very scary, for in reality their emotional resources are woefully underdeveloped.
Broadly recognized as narcissists by their fundamental lack of self-insight, very few of them (depending, of course, on how far out they are on the narcissistic continuum) can achieve such interior knowledge. For in a variety of ways their rigid, unyielding defenses can be seen as more or less defining their whole personality. And that’s why one of the most reliable ways for them to feel good about themselves—and “safe” in the world they’re essentially so alienated from—is to invalidate, devalue, or denigrate others. So they’ll focus on others’ flaws (whether or not they really exist) rather than acknowledge, and come to terms with, their own. And in many curious ways this habit causes them to...
6. ...Have poor interpersonal boundaries. It’s been said about narcissists that they can’t tell where they end and the other person begins. Unconsciously viewing others as “extensions” of themselves, they regard them as existing primarily to serve their own needs—just as they routinely put their needs before everyone else’s (frequently, even their own children). Since others are regarded (if they’re regarded at all!) as what in the literature is often called “narcissistic supplies”—that is, existing chiefly to cater to their personal desires—they generally don’t think about others independently of how they might “use” them to their own advantage. Whatever narcissists seek to give themselves, they generally expect to get from others, too (which is yet another dimension of their famous—or infamous—sense of entitlement).
Even beyond this, their porous boundaries and unevenly developed interpersonal skills may prompt them to inappropriately dominate conversations and share with others intimate details about their life (though some narcissists, it should be noted, can display an extraordinary, however Machiavellian, social savvy). Such private information would probably focus on disclosing facts others would be apt to withhold. But having (at least consciously) much less of a sense of shame, they’re likely to share things they’ve said or done that most of us would be too embarrassed or humiliated to admit. Still, with an at times gross insensitivity to how others might react to their words, they’re likely to blurt out things, or even boast about them, that others can’t help but view as tasteless, demeaning, insulting, or otherwise offensive.
They might, for instance, share—and with considerable pride!—how they “chewed” someone out, and expect the other person to be impressed by their courage or cleverness, when in fact the listener may be appalled by their lack of kindness, tact, or restraint. Additionally, they may ask others questions that are far too personal or intimate—again unwittingly irritating or upsetting them. And such a situation can be particularly difficult for the other person if the narcissist is in a position of authority over them so that not responding could, practically, put them in some jeopardy.
To conclude, I can only hope that these additional characterizations of the pathological narcissist (vs. those with less pronounced narcissistic qualities) may be helpful in enabling you to identify them before their “malignancy” does a number on you. And if you’ve already been duped by their machinations or manipulations, perhaps this piece will be a “heads up” for you to prevent them from wreaking any further havoc in your life.
www.psychologytoday.com/blog/evolution-the-self/201311/6-signs-narcissism-you-may-not-know-about